Analysis of Perception and Feelings
There are many things that make us happy.
Is happiness a consequence of the things that make us happy? or is there another layer of control between perception of a happy situation and the actual feeling of happiness?
[ some happinesss inducing event occurs ] ----> [makes us happy] ?
or
[some happiness inducing event occurs] ---> [the process of perception translates it into an internally measurable entity] ---> [ makes us happy] ?
Unintelligible
Maybe I think too much, maybe I don't think at all, or maybe I unthink everything. But I always take delight in twisting and bending a person's mind for being able to understand what is being thrown to the conscious person who is trying to percieve what is being conveyed to him.
And that is not supposed to make any sense of any sort.
That indeed is the purpose.
A moment of illogicity.
A break from the orderliness around us that we succumb to each day.
Nothing
Nothing
How difficult is it to stop your mind. Have you tried it? Can you stop your mind as you read this? dont think. .. dont think about what you are reading. just feel it. feel it within you. stop thinking. thinking doesnt help. stop your mind.
Lets go about it slowly.
Whats really happening here? Well...light rays are falling on your retina. They are leaving impressions on your brain. That brain is decoding those patterns to make letters. those letters form words. You place those words in context and understand their meaning.
Do you really need to do that?
Do we realy need light to understand what I have just stated? Are you so dependant on light to understand whats being stated here? (ofcourse .. soon we will have other ways of reading text - but essentially we will still be dependent on some external thing to understand what one man is trying to say to another man)
My question is why?
Why should we depend on something. Dont you feel weak? You are dependant on something. That means you arent complete. you are a part of the complete. You need something to complement you. to cover for your voids.
Try this.
Ignore whats written here. Its a funny thing to do. You are reading every letter thats written here - you have to do that to go on. but dont. dont read whats written here. ignore it. theres nothing written here. its your mind. listen to yourself. you are saying the things written here. you are hearing the things written here. you are feeling the things written here. you have always felt it.
Listen to it. yes. bond with yourself. hear it and you will know.
I would have stopped above. because theres nothing more that can be done. There's no way. no truth. no reality. stop reasoning and rationalising. Our Consciousness is weighed down by the gravity introduced due to the rational thoughts we have been trained to nurture.
Dont you feel you are asleep? I hope you feel you are sleeping. I hope you dont really think that this is the world you inhabit. You will wake up. and when you wake up, you will see that there wasn't a 'when'.
Can you measure distance without a scale? Isnt it magical to say that something is 'long'. Do you realise what a powerful word that is. All those words are so mighty. they accomodate so many specifications. 'long' , short', 'big', 'small'. They are the best words to use. But we stick to EXACT values. Coz we feel being non-exact is of no consequence. What we dont realise is that there is no consequence.
Whats the need for me writing this ? None. You will never find reason here. You will never find coherence here. You wont find anything here. What you need to know - you already know. You have forgotten it. Try and remember it.
Myself
Myself
I want to get bored.
I try hard to. I don't try much. Or maybe I try to much.
I just don't remember when was the last time I felt bored.
Why don't I feel bored.
Maybe I should just lock myself up in a room for a year.
But I don't think that will bore me.
I live. I speculate. I think. As long as I think, I can't get bored.
How are the letters I type coming on to the screen? Why am I feeling soo sleepy? Wghy do I get tired? there are soo many things to learn, to know.
I have evolved from a ME who looked at the world as a store full of things to be learnt.
Now I have changed to a ME who loves everything in the world, but knows that its not possible nor necessary to know everything.
I am more content.
I know me, and so I know everything. I use my mind to forget what my heart knows. I need to do that to fit in.
when was I last wrong?
Its impossible to not think about all that I can think of.
But I can think about nothing.
I can stop thinking.
I can stop.
I can.
I don't.
Why not?
Should I be thinking about that as well?
The more you know, the more you know about how less you know.
Why is getting humbled so important to keep a human being sane?
I live through life, and I keep asking myself, "When was the last time I was wrong?".
If I can't answer it fast enough, then I know I am drifting away. I know I am entering the self-dug pit. The way I am, it needs a lot of conscious effort to stay the way I need to.
When you can't remember when was the last time you were wrong, you are in serious trouble. Please make an effort to be wrong. Make an effort to recognise and be open to the fact that you can be wrong. Make an effort to remember all the times you have been wrong.
You are on the right track as long as you are doubtful. If the track has become safe and predictable, then you need to panic. You are on your way to death.
Death has nothing to do with the heartbeat. It has everything to do with the heart. The heart as we define as the centre of self. not the clinical heart.
You are dying, when you are not experiencing, all the emotions.
If you are always worried, anxious, upset etc, you are dead.
If you are always happy, positive etc, again you are dead.
The latter seems hard to believe, we have been taught to recognise it as a good trait.
But, sorrow & pain are very important. They keep us alive. They provide a yardstick for all the happiness our conscious self craves for.
LIVE. Be ALIVE.
When you are reading, its your conscious self reading and comprehending. The subconscious cannot be directly reached through text.
Consciously, we need to be positive, happy & good. Hence, all conventional education disperses good thoughts.
Bad thoughts are necessary as well, but they are indirect consequences. They don't have to be taught.
Our ancestors have struck the right balance. Humanity's survival thrives on the battle between the good and the bad. It doesn't thrive on the good. It thrives on the battle between good & evil. Take the evil out (as if you can - its inconcievable) and humanity is over.
And yes, its true. But if you are reading this, its your conscious self, and your conscious self is not supposed to be aware of this. And your subconscious already knows what it should know.
So I am not really supposed to be writing anything here.
What is the writing serving? Its helping me?
Do I need help?
I need unhelp. If I can get that. But first I need to define what I mean by "unhelp". And I will proudly assert that I am unable to define it.
I derive a lot of satisfaction in stating I dont know, and there's no way I can know; in short - I cannot know.
I love saying that. Coz there are very few things I can talk about that way.
Most things can be rationally classified as "knowable". I don't know many things. But I can know if I really really want to. But there is one thing (which is everything) which just cannot be known. I love that the most. I hate that the most. I that.
I that ( Subject + Object). There is an incomplete predicate in this sentence. There is no verb. I am not stating any relation between "I" & "that", no verb.
"I that".
This is the closest I can come to express how I feel as of now. This is a glimpse of reality.
Reality knows no logic. Hence its interpretations are logicless.
I worship logic, yet I that.
I dont know how. But I dont care.
I just that.
And life suddenly changes:
its no longer a long winding road with my past behind me and the future up ahead of me, with those high mountains and trees and birds and great sights all along it.
Its only Me.
Now. word by word, alphabet by alphabet, I am taking birth, living my life and dying.
Did you know me?
Will you know me?
Do you know me?
Do you have any memories of tomorrow?
confirmations
Conformations
http://www.crystalinks.com/holographic.html
Yes. It all makes sense.
I have seen it. Felt it. Been it. And I don't know why LOVE is the only word that seems to be able to accomodate this feeling.
Thought unifier
do not know which is the best place to put this up.
Maybe unification in my thoughts and work
What I now propose to work on is a radical
way of thought. Thought has long evaded written record coz of our
inability to document it.
I am a philosopher. I think for a living. for my own
living. I cant live without thought.
I belive in my beliefs.
One of my beliefs is that whatever I know is not mine. I am just
materially stating something which is a subset of the Truth as a whole.
That Truth that cannot be stated. Maybe it makes me
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ferent way. I dont claim that its god who has finally endowed
me with the ability to state such things and its all His doing. I dont
separate god from me. He is not a separate entity which rules and
governs me, or even creates me and people like me. He is me. God is me.
god is you. God is everything I see, feel and percieve.
When I speak, I speak of him? No, rather, I speak Him. I speak
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So, my thoughts, my philopohies, might be radical, might be different,
I may be an 'original' thinker. But I am not. My mind is just borrowing
knowledge from my subconscious which has somehow tapped into the Truth.
I have not tapped into it completely. But we as humans have
collectively experienced the truth. Just that the expereince gets
broken down and we experience it individually in small parts. And those
small parts arent enough to satisfy us. We do like the first rains. We
do like the sunset. We do like the baby's smile. But we want more. We
cant seem to be content with the knowledge that after all this is a
part of the ulimate thing we look for.
I propose something. I am a coder by skill. I
code. I write programs. This part is generally listed in my weblog. But
the nature of this is more philosophical. And hell, coding is
philosophical in nature.
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is right...what is wrong.
em to know it.
just dont want to consciouly give it much thought.
I propose to have a system which helps many users contribute to a
thought which derives itself from various other thoughts. Its a complex
cross-linked system. I have the brains to think of it, and the
programming brawn to make it. But it will take quite a lot of my time.
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in the world.
e on that later.
Valentine’s Day?
Valentine's Day?
the world. futile. things dont need to make sense. they never need to make sense.
What do you mean by things making sense. When something makes sense to you, it means that you are able to understand it. Why do we need to understand everything? It again has its answers in evolution.
Life is all about survival. Everything we do, from breathing to being polite to our elders, or laughing or enjoying or feeling sad or angry, all of it springs forth from our sense of survival.
Initially brawn was the gateway to long survival. But in due time, as man evolved (i dunno what prompted man's evolution along this direction) he realised that knowledge is also a vital component to survival. The more we know, the better out chances to defend ourselves. But knowledge on its own becomes too volumnous to retain. An easier way of knowing things is by understanding them. If we understand something, then we are able to retain it better, and use it better.
Since then, man has had this unqenchable quest for knowing things. but the more we probe, the more complicated it gets.
So I believe the biggest curse on a human is his ability to ask 'Why' !
Imagine. Life wud have been so much more simpler if we didnt have the mind to ask why. But in that case, our minds wouldnt have been evolved to appreciate the simplicity of existence.
So we come full circle. The best way to deal with such things is to not want to deal with them. Take things as they come. And listen to your heart.
In today's world we believe that we are all individuals seperate from each other. Thats the modern understanding of this entity called human.
What this understanding masks is the fact that we really are not discernable. We all are just functional parts of the whole system. Just like there are billions of cells keeping us alive. They are individuals, but yet they achieve the common purpose.
How does a cell know what it is supposed to do? THe DNA holds instructions for it.
How does a human know what he is supposed to do in life? The heart holds the knowledge needed.
The heart is very different from the emotions. The heart is not the voices in your head. The heart is the things that we just know.
You know there are times when you just know what you have to do. Thats when your heart is speaking. If you dont ever feel this way, then probably you have forgotten yourself. It wouldnt be your fault. The modern world, though recognising a person as an individual, does not recognise man's emotions. I am talking about technology.
The only places where technology rises above the material is where it sees that to market itself, it has to take care of two things:
It should feed the lazy attitude of man.
It should be aesthetically pleasing.
These are the only human yardsticks as far as technology goes. Mental states, the mind, the emotions are of little importance for technology to progress. Technology is founded upon 'abstract' observations and knowlegde. There is no room for emotions in Newtons third law of motion. A very real law would state :
When an observer, whose state of mind falls in to the category of a general cross-section of people who will read this law, sees an action being performed, he finds that for that action to take place, and equal and opposite reaction is also taking place on the body doing the action.
In our quest to be succint, we kill even the slight thin chance of the heart being able to influence what we materially percieve.
Suchness
Suchness
In sanskrit its called "tathata".
tathata does not mean "truth". It means suchness. It means reality. Truth implies something opposite of false. Tathata does not mean truth, it may mean "The Truth", "The absolute","The infinite". But these descriptions aren't very difficult to grasp. But thats not what truth is. Truth is difficult to grasp. Difficult to approximate. Difficult to put in words. Hence the word "suchness" sounds more right. It cant be understood. Cant be compared to anything else we know. Cant be known. Thats the nature of truth. this word describes it best.
Eastern Philosophy
tathata
Mahayana Buddhist notion of ultimate reality which designates existence as it is in itself, as opposed to how it appears to us; the term is functionally the same as nirvana, Buddha-nature, emptiness, and the Eternal Buddha.
Does not make sense rationally. The words seem to have no congruity at all. What does the definition mean? Dont try to question. Dont try to rationalise. Close your mind, and open ur "SELF" and experience it. The truth can only be experienced. Speaking about it is just an approximation of what it really is. You cant communicate it to anyone. You cant impose it on anyone. All you can do is prepare a person to be ready for it. Its not the end of a journey. Neither is it the path. Its just there. Its what exists. Or rather , it tells you what "exist" means.
"ready for it". Its not something you really need to be ready for. Its not an impending calamity. Nor is it an incident. Its just that Man has lost truth in the clouds of rationality. Facts are not the truth. What you see, touch, smell, hear ... are those truth? No judgements, just questions. Any way of knowing what truth is? Our foundation for facts is not based on any absoluteness. Its all relative. All we percieve is recorded against something we have previously percieved. There is no absolute quantity from which life springs forth. All facts to not point to a smallest indivisible part of matter which we have been trying to reach at since years.
facts point to a big interdependant network, where each "object" derives its existence from the existence of others. There is nothing which has an absolute existence. And man is an observor. without man, there is no world. when u die, you dont leave the world, you take it with you. Since you are not there to experience it the way others do, the world no longer exists for you. And thats all that matters. You wont be unhappy when you die. Your intimate ones will be. They ought to. They need not.
Take solace in the fact that one day we will come to know.
but the truth is, to know it, you should want to know nothing.
I was unable to still my mind, remove all thoghts from it and just exist. I dont know if I can still do it. Maybe i have done it. TIme doesnt matter in such stages. Actually i am insane. I have no sense of time. And my perceptions are different from others. I am "abnormal". But maybe its my rational intelligence which keeps me "in this world". Maybe its a good thing. till death frees me from it. No hurry. Let it take its own course.
koan.
short riddles which are devised to stop ones mind. Stop ur mind. and it all comes to you. it doesnt come. you just become aware of it. its already there.
Matrix comes close to speaking about suchness, without ever mentioning it ever.
It says that the men inside the matrix can touch, see, smell etc. But its all their illusion. IF they could just snap out of it, they could see the wires plugged into them which gives them this illusion. BUt they are unable to, until someone comes and shows them the path. Thats what messiahs are. its just that you cannot be sure whether they are real or not.
only part where matrix differs from my perception of truth. It says that once you snap out of it, you lose the illusionarry senses, and start sensing the real world. But these senses are again sight, sound smell etc. But when we come out of the "maya" of life and experience the truth, there are no sensory organs. there is no perception. just an awareness of It.
It. thats all i can call it.
It. Suchness. Tathata.
